白皑皑的云朵点缀着那无边无际的蔚蓝天，
徐徐微风透过窗棂子蹑手蹑脚地溜进了房间，
清脆的鸟声刺激了我，也刺激了我那毫不整饧的思绪。。。
我欲伸起我的手去抚弄那远在天边一团团的棉花糖。。
可是，不可能发生、不可能出现。
那是对我自己反复说的话。
时间说快不快，说慢不慢。。
多渴望时间停留在我想停留的那一刻。。
至少能让我多做一点事情，哪怕是多看一眼，多说一句话。。。
我都心满意足了。。

那种不安的思绪又再一次的浮现在我的脑海中。。
是我想多了？还是又是另一件事情的前兆。。
有时我多么想把一切都交托给主。。
求他安排我所走的每一条路，
他会引领着我。。。
我知道我依然在他面前是多么脆弱的，
只有他知道我下一条路是如何的。。。
远在天边的你，我把你的一切交给他了。。
求他保佑你，引领着你。
我会默默守护着你，直到承诺到期的那一天。。。

Blue Travillion

My favourite colour and drinks..
Although it is not exactly the same with the one i drank be4
but, it is blue in colour and made me recall a lot of things that i experience be4
when i first drank it, i felt some familiar feeling in my mouth..
Its taste is sweet and warm。
And it can comfort me， make me forget my worries。。
i hope to have that drinks again。。。
no matter how， i will go to drink it again。。
wait for me。。。Blue Travillion。。
And hopefully we can meet with each other in one month time。。。。
U live in my mind and heart。。。。

3 weeks gone.....

After 3 weeks holiday, i wonder how many things i did within these few weeks....
Going to kindergarten during weekdays
playing with kids, ''chatting'' with kids...
sometime i just lose patient to them once they keep on telling or asking something
especially to Elisa and Florence, (my 5 -year- old cousin).
The kids in kindergarten have two sides in them, evil and angel...
they will make u laugh, make u headache....
they get on one's nerves。。。。
but u learn a lot from them..
the simple thinking, the unpredictable action
they can just express the ''trueself'' to u
crying, screaming in a sudden...
but i immune to it already ^^
it makes me to recall back my childhood
and i asked my mum if i did that be4 or not
luckily i am not that bad :P
except i am talkative
And i know that nostalgic memories never come back to us...





Once i grow older and older, i start not to talk much...
cos i know when i have to talk, and when i dont have to talk..
that makes my friends feel that i am a very strict person
in fact i dont...
as my friend did mention, i like to elaborate the story, like to imagine
i like the beauty of imagination..
it made us to fullfill our dream..
but we have to make sure that dreams do not control our thoughts..
After a few incidents, i start not to believe so much in dreams,
cos it makes one to fall deeply once it doesnt happen in reality...
anyway always keep tough and strong
that is what i told myself and others too.....

BACK........

不知不觉我已经在岛上生活了一年，而如今我已经回到我的天鹅家乡了。
一年前，我就这样在匆匆忙忙的情况下离开了我的家人，朋友和我十八年来生活的环境。
我告诉自己不可流下眼泪，必须以坚强的一面离开，我在短短几天内承受的压力是我一生当中前所未有的经历。
可是我知道这只是开始，每一天的结束将会是明天的开始。所以我只能以乐观的态度来度过这一切。
虽然那段日子真的很难过，可是我知道冥冥之中，像是已经安排了一样。我充实地度过了在学院的日子，那段一起为学校，为教堂唱歌的日子，已经成了我人生当中美好的回忆。
前不久我去看了死党的部落格，发现到他们所面对的难题和阻碍。可是我却没尽到朋友的责任，没去慰问他们，却时常在他们联络我之后，才赫然发现到原来他们还是关心我。我想对他们说声抱歉。。
我真想回到那段在中学的日子，一起嘻嘻哈哈，在学校胡闹的日子。我非常感谢跟我一起走那段旅程的朋友们。再过一段日子，我们将会离对方越来越远了，可是我真的深信，距离只会让我们更想对方， 更想知道对方的近况，更想祝福远方的你，我只能默默地祈求你们能得到你们所梦想的，不用怕别人的冷言冷语，只需要相信自己所踩的每一步。总是得从最低一处开始往高处走， 每走一步，下一步会更困难。加油吧，我的朋友们....

The day after TOMORROW...

One day left....

count down for another 24 hrs,

i am gonna leave my hometown and go back to my 2nd home...

Another long long ways to come....

I wonder what will happen when i reach there..

Well, I just wish that what i wished will come true...

But, could it be possible?

I can just make assumptions in my mind..

I start packing my luggage

And double check my list that i done before i came back..

Have to bring this one, that one...

I squeeze and squeezeeeeeeee

Oh no... my bag is full..

Ermmm....

Luckily i brought back an empty bag or else....

Cracking jokes and chitchatting with my dearest friend, teddy bear

About our secrets in heart that we used to share among me, her and panda

we share our secrets in heart

more to our feelings, happiness and disappointments

As the sweet memories lingered in my mind,

Suddenly all kinds of queries surged up my mind and i asked many things from her and ''others'',

And know about many many things that i didn't notice before,

Behaviour, the way of talking....

It seems like a stranger to me..

Maybe different people to face with will give a different kind of reaction...

My heart went weary, unable to find a solution to the problem...

I was suddenly aroused from my thoughts by the ringing sound from the phone..

Life still going on without waiting anyone...

It was indeed realistic and harsh even to a simple girl like me..

When traveling down the memory land,

every sweet moment i have during the last long holiday,

which is deep in my heart,

i will appreciate it forever.

And there is once upon a time,

I thought of being forever with u,

To share my happiness and sadness with u.

But now.....

A peaceful afternoon...

itting alone in front of pc,

My brother is busy playing his psp.

Suddenly i realise my 2 weeks holiday comes to an end...

I have to go back to reality.

Everything comes back to me in a flash...

Desperate of water, walking alone back to hostel, looking at the surronding and recall my memory in hometown, emptiness began to fill my heart...

i start to ask myself , in the stage of growing up, how many things that i actually done to fulfill the life as a Christian.

Is"IT"a challenge from God?

Maybe God breaks our heart to make us whole.

Maybe God sends us pain so we can be stronger,

Maybe God sends us failure so we can be humble,

Maybe God takes "EVERYTHING"away from us so we can learn the value of "EVERYTHING" that we have.....

That "EVERYTHING" makes me think of something or someone that i have experienced and gone through currently....

But i whispering to myself it is just the beginning of my long-long road.....

riends, at least u still have support from one another

U are breathing the same air, looking at the same sky, talking about the same topic, meet with each other,

Can hear, touch, share the same feelings, happiness and disappointments towards something.

But i have to make my own illusion ,

Wondering what u doing in another world across the ocean....

onna meet my close friend tonight(just two of us)

What will we chat about tonight?

Past? Current? or Future?

Just feel eager to meet her soon...

Well, after tonight, when will we meet?

3 months 5 months or even longer than that.....
I dont dare to think about it,

Just give my best wishes to her.......

Happy moment, praise God

Difficult moment, seek God

Quiet moment, wordship God

Painful moment, trust God

Every moment, just thank God